Life can be a mess. You can be told a million things that are false and yet never even
realize it. Some of us are able to free our minds and not settle for the common ideologies of our
culture. So here I will explain how my life’s philosophy had evolved and what I believe. In-order
to properly describe my beliefs, I must first address my take on the word “belief”. There
are two kinds of beliefs. The first are beliefs that are held by faith, which may include
religious beliefs, superstitious and uninformed opinion. All of these options have a potential to
be false. The second type of belief is based on what is ‘known’ not necessarily just ‘believed’.
These beliefs are assertions based upon reason and facts that shape our world view.
My childhood took place in the 80’s and the 90’s. I grew up in a wonderful family that is
deeply religious. My early philosophy of life was completely shaped by a childhood
indoctrination based on Christian fundamentalism. We did the family routine of going to Church
every Sunday and did our part to be “good Christians”. When I was in my teens, I was sent to a
private Christian high school. This school was run right out of a Baptist church. At this school
our world views were shaped by the church. They told us what kind of music to listen to, what
we should be watching on TV and even how to dress. Our school books were all titled “from the
Christian perspective”. This meant that all information in our text books were made to have a
Christian agenda. In these years I had little opportunity to search for a life philosophy of any
other kind. I knew nothing else other than to believe in and worship god and accept all of the
teachings of the bible. No matter what other information we may come across. Among their
teachings were creationism and divinely instituted moral codes. These are two topics I will
touch later on to help describe my position.
After I had graduated from the Christian Academy, I was headed to a Bible College to
become a Christian psychologist. Then things began to change. I had made the decision that I
didn’t want to go to a Bible College after I had had a family fight. This fight dealt with certain
moral issues that I’m not going to go into detail about. Let’s just say some things just didn’t
make sense to me anymore. I read the bible all the way through for the first time at around age
twenty three. I had already read the bible through once, though I read it as if it had been
written by god himself. I studied its contents heavily in my bible class during high school. In
most cases the bible is largely “cherry-picked” by its followers. People will read the bible and
pick out the good stuff and leave out the bad. So for the first time I read the bible as if it was
written by man and not by a divine being. I left nothing out this time. This revealed a lot about
who I was worshiping. As I read through the Old Testament I generated a deep disgust for the
atrocities committed by Yahweh. As I learned more and more about the actual religion and it
history, I felt betrayed and lied to. It had distorted my reality and the way I viewed life.
This new information I had learned changed my view on reality completely. During my
search for knowledge on the subject of religion I stumbled upon a book by Sam Harris called
“The End of Faith”. In his book, he explained how it has always been taboo to question
religiosity and the existence of god in this world (especially in America and Middle East). This is
something that had to change in our human discourse. We needed a new direction in order to
help people use a “reasonable”, “critical” and “secular” worldview. This is the only way to truly
understand reality. If people started to reject old ideas and superstitions it would solve a lot of
cultural and ethical problems. So, I left faith behind me. After-all the blind leading the blind
never gets anywhere productive and I wanted off the “narrow path” philosophy.
I may be making this all sound like it was an easy task. Honestly, after a lifetime of
brain-washing it took almost ten years to really comprehend and undo all of it. I did a lot of
searching and consulting from many different people from diverse walks of life. I studied the
many ‘–isms’ of the world, spiritualism, theism, deism, pantheism etc. I even dabbled in the
world of crazy conspiracy theorists. This is where I learned that there is a point at which
skepticism can show an ugly side as well. One of the best ways to truly understand these
ideologies was to know their roots and their histories. Once they were exposed you could
understand them completely and why people follow such things. In the early days of man they
had limited understanding and knowledge of the natural world. When they made rough
attempts at explaining their perceived reality, this sparked the stories that led to religious
belief. The stars were gods and the trees were also. Many even worshiped time itself in the
embodiment of the Sun. This wonder and imagination enabled man to make up just about
anything to explain the natural world. Out of all this, the artful idea making process spawned
the advent of something greater that led to man’s progress. This began raising human
consciousness and understanding. This enabled humans to use the world around us to improve
our lives using both imagination and wonder to achieve our goals. This became evident in the
form of tools, weapons, artistry and later on writing. But, unfortunately the superstitions stayed
with us and prevailed throughout time. This was due largely to the inheritance of teachings
from our ancestors that went on from generation to generation up to the present day. Even the
religions themselves evolved, which is ironic to me.
One other area I would like to touch on is what I used to believe and now believe about
the origins of Earth and the Universe. As a young Christian the “Genesis” story was drilled into
me at a young age. I was taught that the universe was created in six days and that this occurred
between ten and six thousand years ago. I was also taught that the first man was Adam and
that Eve (women) came out of man. This story revealed a sexist theme that was a running
concept throughout the Bible. Many of the stories in the Old Testament were filled with magic
and unanswered questions. None-the-less, I just accepted All of it because that’s what
everyone else around me believed. I began to read extensively works from authors and
professors such as Richard Dawkins, a popular evolutionary biologist as well as Neil Degrasse
Tyson, a world renowned astrophysicist. In my reading I came to understand certain scientific
studies such as abiogenesis, cosmology and evolution. These are the scientific studies
pertaining to the origins of cellular structures, the cosmos and life on earth. I used to think the
earth was six thousand years old! What was I thinking? Now the facts had arisen that the
universe was fifteen billion years old and man hadn’t walk along side dinosaurs. Makes you
think . . . “Flintstones”? This was all mind-blowing! The idea of the world being brought into
existence through godly incantation within a six day period became a very childish concept to
me.
Some had told me that if I gave up my faith in god I would have no more
purpose in life. People would also tell me that I would no longer posses any sense of moral
direction. As if to say, I wouldn’t be capable of achieving any moral stance without direction by
an absolute objective morality. In other words, I would become a heartless animal. Given the
Christian stance on evolution this makes sense to assume this judgment. This is because they
hate the idea of humans be categorized alongside primates. I had a new understanding of
human ethics. These ethics were built upon by years and years of progress adapting to a
continually changing world and culture. This is the non-absolute subjective morality that has
evolved into today’s modern ethics. I know nothing is ever perfect in our cultures but I
like to think we’ve done pretty well. Animals, land and sea alike, have also been observed
displaying certain moral codes which they have adapted into their own species. They
sometimes show the same characteristics as human conduct. Learning this I came to the
conclusion that there is no “Moral Dictator”.
Having gained a new understanding and knowledge I was regularly approached by
family and friends. They would say that all this new “knowledge” is a satanic fabrication meant
to drive a wedge between god and I. I guess “knowledge” is evil…right? I would counter this by
simply telling people that the purpose of life is to “live life” and to acquire this knowledge and
find the truth in all things. Live life to the fullest since this is the only chance you get. Without
belief in an afterlife, this is truly your only chance. Not having an afterlife scares the hell out of
people, literally. It all ties into the fear of the unknown and thus stories are created out of fear
in order to make it all go away. Thomas Jefferson once said, "Fix reason firmly in her seat, and
call to her tribunal every fact, every opinion. Question with boldness even the existence of a
God; because, if there is one, he must more approve of the homage of reason, than that of
blindfolded fear”.
So in all this, I had also found a new joy and respect for my planet and the magnificent
universe. It’s not just a magical ant farm for a power hungry and jealous god. It became a world
that I wanted to understand and study. My newfound atheism brought me joy and an exciting
want for knowledge that has raised my consciousness to a new level of awareness. This is a far
better feeling than that of fear and guilt that was produced by an invisible means of emotional
support. Sadly though, some of these philosophies have come with a small price tag. I was
alienated in certain ways by friends and family and also ridiculed at times. The treatment of
non-believers in American society is very bad, the funny thing is that atheists, agnostics and
non-believers make up about 13% of the U.S. population. That is a huge voting bloc completely
shunned in politics. Once President Bush Sr. said, “No, I don’t know that atheists should be
considered as citizens, nor should they be considered patriots. This is one nation under god”.
Our current President, Barack Obama is actually the first president that
I know of to date that recognized non-believing citizens in his inaugural address. One of the sad
things is a lot of the religious community just doesn’t understand or purely doesn’t want to
acknowledge our point of view for obvious reasons. As a Christian it was common to block out a
lot of things that we weren’t supposed think to hard about, ‘sow’ a seed of doubt wouldn’t
creep in” (pun intended).
My early life philosophy was submerged in a theistic belief system. Through the telling
of my story I hoped to show the reasoning behind my changing mindset into a larger more
realistic worldview. All of this allowed my philosophy of life to develop into something more
rational. A life philosophy is built upon by a collection of many beliefs either true or false.
The truth should be sought in all things in life even if it makes you uncomfortable. Life is meant
to be lived and lived to its fullest. I can die in peace knowing the truth and the truth has set me
free.
